“My mind and I”
Baring the Soul: Selena Gomez on Bipolar Disorder, Psychosis, and Trouble Having Children
Selena Gomez hadn’t gotten out of bed for weeks or was too excited, and then she heard voices – and the camera rolled through it all. Gomez in her darkest hour and why she allowed herself to be photographed in it.
Selena Gomez turned 30 this year. And she had more reason to celebrate than fans previously realized. Miley Cyrus, along with Billie Eilish, Olivia Rodrigo, Camila Cabello, and Cara Delevingne, arrived with strippers in tow. Gomez celebrated her life which was very different from what she had imagined. Because the star of the world is sick. sicker than previously known. In the documentary Selena Gomez: My Mind and Me, she opens the door and gets an insight into her darkest hour. I spoke to Rolling Stone about the difficult years.
Gomez is a world star. She has sold more than 210 million singles worldwide, and her film projects such as “Only Murders In The Building” have been critically acclaimed. 354 million people on Instagram follow the musician and actress. Gomez is known not only for her artistic skills, but for her originality, vulnerability, and commitment to physical and mental health. Gomez knows what you’re talking about. She not only suffers from autoimmune lupus and has already had to have a kidney transplant, but also from bipolar disorder.
Selena Gomez is bipolar
Gomez first opened up about her mental illness during an episode of Miley Cyrus on Instagram Live. That was in 2020. Four years ago, she had to end the revival tour prematurely and had to check into a facility. Alec Kechichian depicted the stage when she could no longer get out of bed, wander aimlessly around the house and present herself at press events. That’s exactly why Gomez brought the director, who had made “Madonna: Truth or Dare,” into the house.
It had already become dark for her in her early twenties. At the time, she felt like she had no control over how she felt, she told Rolling Stone. The mood lasted for weeks or even months. At peak times, she sometimes couldn’t sleep for days. She was convinced that everyone she knew should buy a car. Then came the bottom. “It started with depression, then came the isolation,” Gomez said. For weeks she couldn’t get out of bed and didn’t want to see anyone. At that time, I also thought about suicide: “I thought the world would be better if I wasn’t there.”
Selena Gomez heard voices
Then came the voices. Eventually they became so noisy that they overshadowed reality and triggered a psychotic episode. She disappeared back into an institution for several months, was paranoid, and didn’t trust anyone. Gomez said she hardly remembers that time. It took some time to recover. At one point she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and she was completely pumped out of medication. “I’m not there anymore,” she said. She searched for a new doctor, who was removed from some medication and gradually regenerated her brain.
“I had to learn to accept that I’m bipolar and that it won’t go away,” Gomez said. She tries to make her illness a friend. However, she is not doing well now, she is not happy again. Gomez had a plan. By the time she was 25, she thought she was going to get married. She wants children. However, because you must continue to take medications to treat bipolar disorder, you will most likely not be able to conceive on your own. She says this is a very big, very big topic in her life right now. But she is convinced that her desire will be fulfilled: “Whatever way I can get it, I will get it.”
The recordings of “Selena Gomez: My Mind and Me” are so raw that she hesitated for a long time whether she should agree to publication. “Because I have the platform I have, it’s like sacrificing myself for a bigger cause,” she told Rolling Stone. “I don’t want to sound dramatic, but I almost never released this. To be honest, a few weeks ago I wasn’t sure I would.”
Selena Gomez: My Mind & Me premieres November 4th on Apple TV+.
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Source: Rolling Stone, Glamor